I can't help but feel disappointed in KHJ. I admit, JoongBo was like 1/4 of what I liked about him, so yeah, I'm liking him less now. Not least of all because he's clearly an idiot for letting HB go. Even if it was HB who refused to start a relationship, HJ should have pursued her relentlessly until she gave in (her affection seemed clear to me).
But instead, based on his interviews, HJ's not the type to beg. He just lets go. He said he tends to get dumped because he likes spending time with his buddies more than his girlfriend and he's not good at expressing himself. Well, that's nice self-awareness, but if he can end his relationships, then it must mean he just didn't really care enough. No matter how proud you are or how difficult it is for you to express feelings, if you love that person, you wouldn't just let them go. HJ even said he doesn't believe in "the impossible love".
He said he believes in fated love, but it seems if there's a problem or a break-up, he thinks it just wasn't meant to be and lets go. That doesn't sound like a love of deep loyalty and destiny. I'm starting to think that HJ is just a serial monogamist.
Maybe he's still just too immature. There's nothing wrong with wanting to hang out with the guys, but it seems he just wants to have fun, not live a life together. I don't blame him; he just hasn't experienced real love yet.
So, *sigh* I've decided I no longer believe in JoongBo in real life anymore. It's been hard to accept, and I feel very sad and strangely empty (JoongBo took up so much of my heart?), but this is my new stance. I'll still ship them but as a fantasy. I'll treasure the memories of WGM, and I'll still believe that what we saw, what they experienced, was real. But it ended there, and all the coincidences of the past 2 years are just more bittersweet proof that they could be so perfect together... if only...
(I actually feel sorry for HJ. I think that HB is the only woman awesome enough to be happy with HJ and make him happy, too. There's a reason all his girlfriends break up with him after dating; because he is so not perfect, KHJ fangirls. >_> On the other hand, HB can have any man she wants, probably some hunky, sensitive, wonderful guy from Compassion. ;)
My heart will always dream of JoongBo. I'd be happier than anyone if they met again and fell back in love and actually did end up together! <3 But if not, it's okay, as long as both find love and happiness.
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If I find out years later that HJ was just lying about everything and that they were together, I will fly to Korea and kick his ass!!
*sigh* I'm hopelessly JoongBo. -_-;
